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THE USED POET
an online journal of randomness
**Mike Tells Me**
posted on Monday, December 26, 2005 at 03:58 p.m.
Mike tells me that it's time to move on-
step out
and take that flame-
the burn only scars
for eternity
and that's much shorter
than a lizard's tail of regret.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**Written in sand...**
posted on Thursday, December 22, 2005 at 07:39 p.m.
staring at the words written.
spaces unravelling
and spreading farther out of reach
she feels within herself
a new kind of break. fragments
fused and jointed.
bending with wind and pressure.
smiling
at doors open
and storms staining glass.
there are miles of separation but one mind between them.
constant
and craving.
reaching and pawing-
the smile that begins to form
keeps going beyond the image
and beyond the frail promises of
a pair of footprints in the sand.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo****
posted on Thursday, December 22, 2005 at 07:32 p.m.
Wanted to update and let everyone know that the Poetry I link is being updated with my old poetry. the stuff from my Starfire poetrypoem site. i've decided to revisit the poetry that i wrote when i first began with this addiction and i'm fairly taken back by the power of some of my beginning ideas.
i'm up at my parents place for christmas so i won't be in good communication with many of you and i apologize but the work i'm producing right now is something that's completely taken me back. a style and feeling that's really different for me....i'll post one of my favorites after this entry.
so if i don't update before christmas...i wish you all love and a very wonderful christmas.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**Chris 'n' Alysia**
posted on Sunday, December 18, 2005 at 05:03 p.m.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**Off to Starbucks**
posted on Sunday, December 18, 2005 at 12:38 p.m.
Just off to my daily SAA meeting (((yah, that's for you dylan!))) and decided to stop in for a quick update.
A lot has been going on in this mind and pen of myne. People actually recognizing my work, people at the cafe wanting to read more and more of it, and tons of amazing support from everyone that has read it. it's overwhelming. and the concept of poet...
that's super strange. but comfortable.
But even with all this amazing support and everyone digesting my work, John and Jessie are definitely the two that have supported and loved my work from the very beginning. and without those two i don't know who i've been writing for other than myself and the constant desire to draw blood upon the page.
so thanks you two. you will never know how amazing your love has been for me.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo****
posted on Wednesday, December 14, 2005 at 08:22 p.m.
When asked today,When you look at the world what do you see
i was taken back. this man, whose opinion i've come to really respect and admire totally sees me as this different species...
this poet species.
like it's something different than everyone else. that my eyes see differently. that my ears hear something no one else does.
i've never thought of it that way. i see things like everyone else does. i am just an average regular gurl. in all reality, yes everyone is amazing, but i'm just average. and i really strongly believe that.
and i'm not denying any of my poet's blood or lust for the pen. i know it's something completely amazing but i don't think it's something that sees different or hears different...i think it just pays attention.
but who knows...i'm just the silly poet that slits her wrists and lets the blood run upon the page.
i can't deny it or write any other way. that's just the way my heart thirsts for it. that's just who i am.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**AUTUMN'S MONOLOGUE BY from autumn to ashes**
posted on Wednesday, December 7, 2005 at 07:53 p.m.
it's repeating over and over in my head so i hafta post it.
jess please message me. i need you.
Oh why cant I be what you need
a new improved version of me
but i'm nothing so good
no i'm nothing
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence of love and of sorrow
i beg for just one more tomorrow
where you hold me down fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins
Chorus:
I break in two over you
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you dont see me, you dont...
here i'm in between darkness and light
bleached and blinded by these nights
where im tossing and tortured til dawn
by you, visions of you then youre gone
the shock lifts the red from my face
when i hear someone's taking my place
how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel
when all, all that i did was for you
Chorus:
i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you dont..
i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you don't...
i break in two over you
i break in two over you, over you
i break in two
i would break in two for you
now you see me
now you don't
now you need me
now you don't
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo****
posted on Wednesday, December 7, 2005 at 07:50 p.m.
tears flowing
passing my navel
falling to the floor
crystals that i've never felt before
slicing my body
creating a stream of blood
overflowing
and yet none of it compares
the sight
within your eyes-
your heart lieing in the middle of this room
barely beating
and gasping for breath.
all the blood in the world wouldn't save it now.
all the blood couldn't cure me now.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo****
posted on Monday, November 28, 2005 at 06:51 p.m.
i don't know where you get off-
which way you're going to turn-
and i'm not staring back at you
to find out.
i know it's me here in this room
spun with paint
littered with gray.
i know that it's always going to hurt-
this scar upon my wrists
the nurse's clucking as she wrapped me-
like my blood was more than a gift for someone else's christmas.
the stains still haven't gone away
and the therapist suggests moving.
like moving would save me from the memory
of what's still going on inside my head.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo
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