**Snowglobe**
posted on Thursday, November 18, 2004 at 11:10 p.m.
So everything should be doing alright now....now that i've pulled every hair frum my head! *laughs*
Anyway, Banff was awesome. COLD, but awesome. I met everyone that i'll be working/living/playing with. They all seem very fun- -and i'm not the youngest!
i didn't stay the night...had one of those feelings and the drive home was scary thru the pass but i made it alive and i start work at the lodge on monday. i won't have a board by then but i'll love it just the same. away frum society, dirty citys, and most pollution---just me and the cold and snow and no civilization!
i have my schedule kicking around sumwhere here---i'll post it l8r.
Mom- - -thank you so much for the comment! Mind you, i did roll my eyes several times but thank you just the same *smiles & sticks out her tongue*
Trav- - -i know i already wrote sumthing to you last entry but i really really appreciate everything *hugs* thank you for being so wonderful!
Jess- - -i can't wait to see yer kitty! (((tho she won't be as adorable, nor as wonderful as myne of course!)))
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**Back frum Banff**
posted on Thursday, November 18, 2004 at 2:04 p.m.
*sticks out her tongue* countdown to work equals - - - - 4 days!
Banff was fun-ish. kinda krazy. But anyway, i'll update y'all about that l8r, as well as fixing the page.
Thank you trav! you are so incredibly good to me. *smiles* i wish i was in a snowglobe too.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**Sleep in 5 hours? !**
posted on Tuesday, November 16, 2004 at 04:55 p.m.
Tomorrow's D Day. Or at least, the day in which i have to rouse myself out of my nice warm cozy bed at the ungawdessly hour of 5am. or earlier. ugh
Banff can't wait for me to have a full night's beauty sleep. But i guess it's about time i shoved myself into sum sort of routine that doesn't include me sleeping until noon, eating, watching my soap, and sitting on my ass staring at this monitor.
*crosses her fingers* wish me luck.
and beauty. . . ! *laughs*
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo****
posted on Monday, November 15, 2004 at 08:50 p.m.
something more
the constant search
the struggle
there's nothing more that fills them
nothing more that taunts them
look at me
do you see this soul?
try
stare closer and thru the person you think you see
there's nothing more.
i can't offer any excuse
any reasons
i could tell you about my life
but you won't sit down-
only have the time to notice yourself turning away.
tell me, how many times have you walked towards those city lights
and how do you sleep
when it's cold outside?
do you think of them?
do you see me?
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**Back Home. . .Fer a lil while**
posted on Monday, November 15, 2004 at 07:11 p.m.
:) I'm back!
it was awesome to get a way for a while. visit the fam. visit washington. and shop. *huge smile* mmmm...shopping! *laughs*
i missed bailey so much tho. i really don't know how i'm going to survive a whole 2 weeks without her. (and you too kevin! *sticks out her tongue*) But i'm so stoked for this (minus the cold and snow)
anyway, i'm outta things to say. . . .(((but will pro'ly post l8r 'cause i'm hugely bored)))
have a great night
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo****
posted on Tuesday, November 9, 2004 at 09:08 p.m.
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much luv- -alysia xxx ooo****
posted on Tuesday, November 9, 2004 at 08:26 p.m.
Bailey just wanted to say "hi" 
oh and j? i got yer present (or well, part of it) today---very exciting indeed!
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**Gothics**
posted on Monday, November 8, 2004 at 03:06 p.m.
14 more days until i'm stuck in the snow and cold- - - I AM SO EXCITED!
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**beauty is not a beautiful thing- -.:a poem**
posted on Sunday, November 7, 2004 at 09:55 p.m.
"beauty is not a beautiful thing. what has beauty made of me? beauty has made me another notch in another headboard."
beauty has made me unaware of myself.
beauty has made me the hate of the gurls locker room.
beauty has made me the bitch.
beauty has made me your boyfriend's next conquest.
beauty has made me the center of attention where i want to be a wallflower.
beauty has made me fall for lies.
beauty has made me question motives. question trusts. question "loves"
beauty has made me weak.
beauty has labelled me unintelligent.
beauty has labelled me skin deep
beauty has made me a "beauty queen". an unattainable exotic goddess.
beauty has made me out to be sumone i'm not.
i'm not this face. this gurl that i see in the mirror. so i'm sorry if i have to stare. if i have to sit in front of this mirror and just do that---stare.
because that's not me that i see.
my spirit is not defined by wat you see. wat colors i wear. wat makeup i choose to paint with.
this face isn't me.
isn't all that i can be.
just because i look this way. just because i'm sick of the image. just because the eyes around me drool. that doesn't me it's all of me. i have so much more to offer. i want to do so much more than become a model beauty queen that only wants "world peace"
i want so much more out of life.
inside this 'beauty' is a tortured soul. is a reckless soul. who's addicted to writing. who's been down a few hundred of the wrong pathes. who longs to work in africa. to get dirty there. to spread awareness. to make a difference.
an unnamed difference.
i don't want to be seen by who i walk with. with who my friends are. who i've slept with.
i want to be free to be myself. to make a fool of myself. to walk in the rain. to get dirty.
i want you to see me.
but without this appearance? you will never know.
Thought this was fitting. sitting here alone with ani and a billion candles. and lava lamps. and the city outside.
everything outside.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**Bailey's Great Adventure**
posted on Saturday, November 6, 2004 at 05:19 p.m.
Rememeber when i said i couldn't find bailey last night jess?
turns out there's a good reason i couldn't find her in the house. She wasn't in the house. The lil troublemaker snuck outside sumhow and didn't get let back in until 630 this morning when Carmen got up for work.
I nearly had a heartattack. Damn freakin cat anyway
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo
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