**Greetings frum the weeks of hell**
posted on Tuesday, January 25, 2005 at 04:50 p.m.
well it seems Mother Nature hasn't been very fond of the whole CMH empire these past couple of weeks and in doing so, she hasn't been very nice to me and the rest of the staff here.
*sighs* but it looks like my "5th sense" (that's fer you mandi) is on target once again and my feeling that tuesday of this week would be skiing came true.
but anyways, i'm still alive and smiling so i guess that's all that counts. i'll ignore the fact that i can barely swollow and am getting gawdessknows wat kind of infection in my lungs right now. . .
anyway, i'm home at the end of this week if all goes well and the roads aren't horrid.
i miss you all and hope you are doing well.

**Buried Alive**
posted on Tuesday, January 18, 2005 at 12:45 p.m.
it's absolutely beautiful here. the trees are coated so heavily with snow that you can only see the color white. the only problem?
it's still snowing.
i think we got 2 feet last night. 15 inches actually.
that means that i'm literally going to hafta find my car!!! *laughs*
anyways, other than all the snow. life is good. i'm feeling a lil cut off frum everyone and i still have a week and a half to go but i'm sure i'll survive and actually miss this place on my 6 days off.
but then? then i'll be sleeping in. none of this 6am shyt!
i love you and miss you all. hope yer having fun!

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posted on Tuesday, January 11, 2005 at 06:14 p.m.
so frum now on i'm going to pay more attention to my "5th sense" (that's fer you mandi)
Brigette (my boss) called me tonight. which was kool, i caught up on gossip and the happenings in her life but wat also happened is that i agreed to go back to work tomorrow to help 'em outta a "situation". *headache*
so that means that i will be waking up far too early and driving for far too long to go to work and then go to a "heli-party" with the staff and pass out at about 3...if i'm lucky.
*bangs head off keyboard* and the season officially starts for me. 24 days off between now and the end of april.

Kevin- - -here we go again! i'm going to miss you. hope you have fun when i'm gone.
Peter- - -it's not going to be the same at all. *frowns*

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posted on Monday, January 10, 2005 at 07:56 p.m.
so i'm back home again. kinda feeling like a bit of a yo-yo over these past couple weeks. also feeling really lazy 'cause i haven't been to work in so long!
6 am mornings are going to come as such a shock.
but at least i have 4 more days to prepare!.

Geoff--i had so much fun hanging out with you these past couple weeks.
Peter--it's been forever! i can't wait to talk to you again.

**a look into the glass**
posted on Friday, January 7, 2005 at 06:11 p.m.
And since you know you cannot see yourself,
so well as by reflection, I, your glass,
will modestly discover to yourself,
that of yourself which you yet know not of.
William Shakespeare

wat part of yourself is hidden frum your eyes? is hidden not to others? wat color is your aura? and does it paint you well?
i've always envied beautiful people. maybe harboured a secret hatred/longing for and against them. i have had those same feelings held against me. and maybe i hold them against myself as well. But i am often told that there is "just sumthing" about me. the way i carry myself i suppose. tho i'm not sure how that would be.
i stare. i compare. i look deep within the eyes that look towards me and i still cannot find the answer.
wat can a 2 dimentional image tell me?
nothing. she just stares. she can be observed. calculated. thought of. talked to. she can become a perfectly lovely person.

But dear glass, you are not speaking to me. Not sharing your secrets. you are keeping discovery to yourself and i'm puzzled by your names.
but i do not doubt you. for i know, in time, you will reveal to me. the truths. the hidden movements of this passing reflection. In time you will tell me wat i do not know about myself.