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THE USED POET
an online journal of randomness
**old poetry. old pages.**
posted on Wednesday, May 18, 2005 at 07:58 p.m.
faded stars have fallen frum my ears. i can no longer cover up all the holes. all the missing pieces. they are a part of me--these pieces. i quite enjoy them. stick my tongue out in the mirror. mess up my hair. laugh and dance at loud music--it doesn't matter wat's on.
i'm me. and you can't take that away.
you can burn me. torture me. slit my throat.
but you cannot change me.
and as i throw these faded stars against the wall i don't forget that. i don't forget the time they held my hand.
the way the moon fell across the water.
there's no turning back.
not without trading the character.
and i won't do that.
i won't erase these scars. these thoughts that create me whole but in pieces. in fragments of inspiration.
look at me.
i'm naked. bleeding on the floor.
and singing.
wat more can this world do to me???
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo****
posted on Tuesday, May 17, 2005 at 11:22 p.m.
you never know who's watching
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**you were like a phone booth that i sumhow stumbled into. . .**
posted on Tuesday, May 17, 2005 at 10:42 p.m.
so guess who's sick again?
at least i gives me an excuse to see Bailey again. (((yes, i am a loser-----)))
Trav, i'm counting down the days until i get to see you again. life is just not as enjoyable when yer best friend is on the other side of the world. i hope yer having fun!!!!
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**a quick update**
posted on Friday, May 6, 2005 at 09:36 a.m.
Just sitting up at the computer is exhausting for me so this is really going to be quick----i have strep throat. bad.
i'm still alive. it's just painfully to sleep, breath, eat, swallow, move.
hopefully i'll be back on my feet soon....but until then....i hope y'all have fun without me!
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo***nervously chews on ice***
posted on Tuesday, May 3, 2005 at 08:28 p.m.
So, here i am again. in nothingness. and i really don't continue to care.
BOYS R DUMB
just had to mention that once again.
anyway, i'm still working lots. still living out of my car. still not going back to skool and "living up to my potential"
well poo on them. *laughs*
trav. i miss you babe. like krazy. i can't wait for you to come back but make sure you see EVERYTHING
Dan. so now i have a cold. and a fever. and most likely another freakin lung infection. blah.
*sighs* and that's it.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo**still alive....sorta**
posted on Wednesday, April 20, 2005 at 07:17 a.m.
just a quick update to let everyone know i'm still alive (barely). i'm working like krazy but loving every minute of it!
i miss you so much trav. life's not the same when yer best friend is halfway across the world....and hey, if yer in austria....let me know. . . .
Bailey i miss you so much hun, i can't wait until we're not seperated like this anymore.
anyway, it's time fer me to go again....hope y'all are doing well.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo***bangs head off keyboard***
posted on Friday, March 25, 2005 at 09:10 p.m.
Trav- -i miss you hun! life without constant connection with yer best friend isn't nearly as happy and fun. i hope yer having fun over in europe. i desperately want to come and find you but i don't think europe is ready fer that!
Karl- -i don't really know wat to say babe. i miss you like krazy.
i'm not giving up.
i'm not giving up.
i'm not giving up
i'm not giving up
maybe if i tell myself that enough it'll sink in.
wish me luck.
much luv- -alysia xxx ooo
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